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Wednesday, August 29, 2012

| shah alam mari |


.السلام عليكم.
.ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T.



walaupun malas, tapi hati girang.
it's time for countdown to the days for degree enrollment.
bukan aku sorang aje tapi ramai lagi woo.

takat ni, aku tak jumpe lagi sape2 yang same kos dengan aku.
but, as always kite akan jumpe kat sane.
macam asasi dulu.

how i missed my friends. *wiping tears
ok, ok. enough with sadness.
kene bergerak ke hadapan.

harap2nye dapat satu bilik dengan former classmate dulu.
baru syok. at least kitorang memang satu geng. hahaha.

DAYAH! daftar same2 tau. insyaAllah la kalau dapat ea.


ok shah alam. nanti aku datang Sabtu nih.
be good to me will ya? *wink2


Tuesday, August 14, 2012

*my happy beginning*


.السلام عليكم.
.ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T.




tengok betape besarnye screen komputer aku.
luas-seluasnye.

alhamdulillah praise to Allah.
mase yang aku nantikan dah tiba.
memang Allah nak kasi ujian kat aku untuk aku tempuh sepanjang Ramadhan ini.

at last, i've been given the opportunity to study again.
and what better news than this?

although i'm not even sure what course its really about.
but i'll take my chances.

+peluang datang sekali seumur hidup+
+hargailah selagi dapat+

memang ada sekali tu, aku termimpi.
mimpi siang2 la kot sebab lepas subuh tu.
aku bukak wifi sume, nak tengok result laa.
and at that time, aku berjaya.
i'm not sure what course i've got, and which server i opened.
tapi mase tu aku harap that's my dejavu.
*harap sangat*

and wallah! dreams do come true.
hopefully aku berjaya dalam kos ni.
mintak sangat2. don't wanna end up like last time.

seriously aku dah jerak!
lessons learnt and this time i'll be thinking positively.


*i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready*
and ready i will be.

pray for me and insya Allah may your life also be blessed.

Friday, August 10, 2012

despair, is the word.


.السلام عليكم.
.ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T.



i am in so much pain that i don't know how to endure all of it.
how can i? for this little heart to handle them all.
terlalu banyak emosi nak tunjuk tapi i'm not the one with those emotions.

yes, now i think its true that sometimes you tend to escape from it.
leaving it as a bad memory.
as if it will soon go away.

but NO! i'm facing the reality.
not a nightmare that i have from sleeping.
memang ade rase tertekan, but if not now, bile lagi?

keputusan permohonan tu memang nak bagi aku a heart attack.
its not that aku nak kate aku dapat kat tempat yang aku nak ke x.
its about mine was never in the system.

ohmagod! ohmagod!
WAS NEVER IN THE SYSTEM??
the question mark was sooo big that i felt depressed thinking about it.

now, i really felt the world was too big for me.
i tried to call the helpline.
not once but lotsa lotsa of times.
but to my despair, no one answered.

i'm not sure where's the part that i got screwed up.
mana2 tempat pun boleh jadi.
one simple, minor mistake, then jadiknya macam ni.

but, as i thought.
maybe bukan aku je yang dapat macam ni. ramai lagi.
mane tahu.
dalam berjuta2 orang, it's impossible that only i'm the one who got nothing.

hmmmmmm, now i think i need to calm down.
to settle things more clearly.
bukan main hentam barang gitu like a maniac. NOOO!

if aku xsolvekan masalah ni secepat mungkin, how am i to pursue my education in the bachelors degree level?
i'll be left alone while the others are happily studying to reach their dreams.

I DON'T WANT THAT, AND I WON'T MAKE IT HAPPEN.

i just need patience and some hope. 

plus, your encouragement. *really! i'll be needing it.
making my life easier for the near future.

and this is all i want to blabber about, where nothing goes right. 

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

: suka & cinta :


.السلام عليكم.
.ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T.



i know! the first thing yang korang maybe akan terfikir, have i been in love before? or rather have i a crush on someone? 

theseee, *pointing in circles has got nothing to do with me. mungkinlah. not sure. okai. white lie. SORII!!

dalam masa yang agak lamaaa, baru aku terfikir mende2 gini. well, firstly. those who couple2 nih, try to figure out on your own. which one are you?

sukaa
i'm not pretty sure untuk suka2 nih. cause bagi aku xdelah perasaan sayang tu timbul bagai nak rak. it's like a crush o sth like that. kau suka dia? common question kan? 

suka tu kalau aku, perasaannye gituuu aje. xde lebih kurang. kalau aku suka, aku x sayang. *sirius cakap! hahaha, but still, better for me to have a crush right cause aku bukannye pandai nak layan teman2 nih. aku jenis yang memang suka buat orang frust dengan aku. and with that, i'm sorry.

cintaaa
a strong word for like. you think so? yang ni aku rase ade laaa timbulnya perasaan2 yang sepatutnya ada. cth : sayang gila2, cemburu, bangga, understandingss, trust, terima seadanyaaa dll. 

ada perasan tidak? beza dia maybe aku sorang faham. maybe tidak. hahaha. loving someone is like a job. sth you have to work with. bukan senang nak cinta, dan bukan juga senang nak sayang. 

but the truth is, loving someone after marriage is the sweetest thing to happen in one's life. yess, i know bukan semua dapat rasa. cause everyone has their own story. 

such as myself, my wish is to make a great story in my life.
we can only plan it, but its always ALLAH who will make things come true.

bagi aku, tidak apa aku xcinta, takat crush tu berape je pun ade. cause i'm still waiting for the right guy who can guide me and my family to jannah.

and in fact, aku tahu, you too still waiting for him/her. i'll pray for you. till then, i believe i won't play with my feelings anymore after this. perasaan saja, nak layan buat apa? haha.

i bid good luck to you *and also to myself dalam mendapat kehidupan yang berkat fiddunnia walakhirat. till then.

toodles.

Friday, August 03, 2012

*menjenguk kembali*


.السلام عليكم.
.ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T.



sudah tak biasa nak berblogging 
tapi xsemena2 nak jugak taip malam ni.
yelaaa. mane xnye, aku stop kerje baru2 ni.
xdelah mase nak menaip segale bagai.

tapi sekarang macam2 cerite aku nak gitau.
BUT xtau nak gitau yang
 mana satu pulak.
banyak kes terjadi woooo semenjak aku xmenaip ni.
yang kes terbaru.

orang mati terjun bangunan kat tempat aku kerje.

haiya, baru langkah kanan masuk kerje kecoh kedai.
aku ni dengar citer gitu aje.
terkejut pun ade jugak.
yelah, aku baru pusing tempat dia jatuh tu.
masok2 kerje dah ada mayat kat tempat tu.
na'uzubillah.

kalau jadinye die terjun mase aku tengah pusing tempat tu.
memang aku mental trauma jadinyeee.
xmasuk kerje seminggu. komfirm!
*eh! seminggu je ke?

bila dah jadi hot news satu bende mesti jadik.
gosip sana gosip sini.
lagi2 bulan ramadhan nii.
ade je nanti pikir bukan2 pada arwah tuu.
jangankan time puasa nak amal ibadat tapi penuh dengan dosa mengumpat sudah.

so, apa yang aku dapat daripada peristiwa tu salah satunya kuatkan iman.
agama itu mesti dipegang teguh.
jangan nak main langgar je.
kalau x, tentunya xfikir dah fasal nak buat segala larangan Allah.
*contoh di sini membunih diri.

.'i' dengan 'I'.
janganlah kita beragama oleh kerana dengan nama Islam sahaja tapi berusahalah untuk menjadi seorang islam yang soleh dan solehah sepanjang hidup kita.